It has been along while…I did not know that these math and science classes would consume my entire existence. In the past few months I have learned so much about myself. One thing is that I am smarter than I wanted to admit. Definitely room for a confidence boost in this area. The other thing is that I am happily living with PTSD, OCD, “Good/Bad” Mom, Separation Anxiety, Abandonment, and the one I ❤️ the most is Disassociation. I am no pill popper, so now I have to learn how to embrace them all, just as we accept how the seasons change. It’s a part of life-my life!
We try so hard to take drugs (prescribed or recreational), and/or alcohol to make things go away instead of learning how to incorporate them to our existence by just simply accepting them. In addition to being present in moments to recognize what might trigger them. I have long accepted that I am abnormal and have not ever been one for conforming, those sisters I mentioned above will not allow me to either 😂.
And to think, not any of those jewels came into existence from any self inflicted indulgence. They are the results of a near death experience, neglect, trauma from physical abuse, unsolicited sexual acts, and bad parenting. Some have embedded themselves within me as early as three months old. They are what makes me-me. To deny any or one them would be me denying my truest self.
How have you been? What have you been up to? How was your Spring? Did any new adventures spring into your life? How is the start of Summer going for you?
Poor Mindful Edibles has been put on the back burner. Not even daily social media posts. I do manage to find time to complete orders and formulate for individuals. I made a serum for a client that I fell in 😍 with. Now that I actually know a little bit more about Chemistry, things are making much more sense. In order to get things going, I am taking microbiology, anatomy and physiology on top of a few Chemistry classes, and plenty of math. I am so excited as I know the benefits of having a Chemist working for Mindful Edibles and for you.
I am thankful I decided to blog while being at the laundry mat. Last week I wrote an essay. This week I blog. I think for now on I will blog while completing my 🧺. I enjoy 😊 figuring out ways I can kill two birds with one stone. Why is that even a phrase to use all these thousands of years later? 😆 I do not want to kill birds 😂. I hope this was an easy read and that it settled into the crevices of you understanding a bit more about yourself. And as always feel free to comment, share, and like. Thank You!